gel ink pen

fuck. i really want to go back in school and study art this year. it's a folio entrance course and i dont feel i have anything worthy to show- I only have sketchbooks and little scribbles and lots of unfinished crap. I've been doing a bit of stuff lately, but i get so angry about it, i just want to cry, im really not happy with my style and upset at my lack of perseverance. i dont even know if i want to study art, but i guess its worth a shot.

i'm settled in my new home in melbourne.
i'm eating vege lasagne that nate and i made last night, and i am happy.
this city is not one to save money in, that's fer sher! things are so cheap
ie: eating, shopping. but when your views are: "wow, thats cheap, how
could i possibly resist this bargain?" to every single thing you see,
it kind of adds up at the end of the day.  unfortunately. we've been here
3 weeks now, and i've calmed a bit. the house is partly furnished
thanks to the wastefulness of society. we have found everything on the
side of the road or outside unopened op shops, (bookshelf, 3 tables,
2 couches, coffee table, desk, chairs) it's wonderful! i am very fond of
free things! another thing i've managed to find is a job. reluctantly. but still,
need to bring in the bacon somehow, eh.
waitressing in a shitty little restaurant in st kilda. 12 dollars an hour!!
i wasn't even paid that poorly when i was thirteen, goddamnit!
Nate works at this fancy pants restaurant called Seamstress that does
cantonese fusion.he does 16 hour shifts and I never see him. I've just
been at home, cleaning, baking, gardening, like a good housewife.
I get pretty lonely. I would really like to buy a puppy. but I'll probably just
start out with a plant for now. start low, aim high.
been looking into doing an arts course at RMIT Tafe, it's 1000 bucks for
2 years, pretty reasonable, and you get to choose art that you prefer:
painting, sculpture etc. i dont know what i want to be when i grow up.
im pretty interested in nutrition but i need basic chemistry knowledge
which i so sorely lack. we'll see. i like to keep creative all the time so
that talent never dwindles.
we'll see

to see photos of our australian road trip, go: here
i am too lazy to upload photos from photobucket takes so long

my sparky and i bought a holga today!


it's amazing!

Nate and I are driving over to Melbourne on Tuesday. We have a house in St. Kilda. I can't wait to go to local growers markets and buy 1/2 price ugly kiwi fruits! , and put together our bedframe, and visit radelaide again, and go to numerous wineries, and start growing herbs in our garden, and have intimate dinner parties, and watch late-night ABC, and make love, and buy a puppy, and and make homemade bran bread, and go for strolls around the neighbourhood at dusk, and occassionally surprise Nate with my special vegan muesli bars!, and rug up in the winter with big duffle coat and scarf, and go to gigs, and have a little bambino one day. :)

hot chickaaaa!

anne has inspired me!
my first ever pencil drawn pin up girl!



I think the key is to use watercolours, but im not so good with them.

so im thinking of getting another job. a grand total of three!
upon having my eyes tested, the friendly irish optometrist asked if
i would like a job as a receptionist type. i replied indicating my lack
of experience, but infact the solitude skill i require is touch typing.
surrounded by enthusiastic old ladies and sitting at a desk all day.
i might take it.
caring, fun-loving woman seeks sturdy reliable vehicle
pref. 20 yrs her senior ,looking for a good time up to 3+ months,
price range 800 -2000k
anyone selling/know of anyone selling?
or somewhere decent i could look?
moving out of home in hopefully a week or so.
found a place in east fremantle, living with some cats
from work and a new Hungarian friend: Victoria :)
bought a lamp yesterday, next comes the bed and wardrobes.
moving out is such a hassle.

xo

man i hate being explotied.
i was promised a payrise on the 10th of April
and still have not received a penny more than minimum wage,
they are beyond slack, im so sick of sucking little creature's proverbial cock
ergh. and my boss at moore & moore had a chat to me,
about my work ethic and that i don't work very hard. but its because
i do fourteen hours work the previous day. I'm always so tired
i want some ritalin or something to fake pep me.
learning italian at the moment, with these audio tapes
and also there are like ten people at creatures who
are fluent in italian, so i always get little lessons.
a girl from work and her boyfriend and my fella are
maybe moving into a house in fremantle, and i only
have to pay 80 bucks a week, which is sa-weet
& i go traveling in three months!

ciao
il mio italiano sta ottenendo più meglio

so i was thinking of getting some more face holes.
two nostril piercings side by side. (average sized silver rings)


this is clearly an adequately indication of what i would look like.
     

the first time i've picked up my cello in months, and the A string snaps.
sitting on the floor, broken string in hand. it really struck a chord. (pun intended)
i don't think i've cried like that in a long time.

this year has actually been the worst of my life,
but without the suffering who would i be?
so it's all eventually for the better. here are some photos.

 
( MINE AND LOTTIES BALLS, pixies, hulaballoo, stoner videos, western saloon tarts, rock n roll & lindy hop ) </div>

Wwwwwhat up? my sleep pattern is really fucked right now. I cannot sleeep!
Anyone have any tips on getting some shut-eye?

"drummers are better lovers because they have good pace in the sack"

hahaha, agreed.

this new year is making me so very nostalgic.
seems like the start of last year, or the end of 2005.
feelin' motivated, inspired and looking forward.

i feel happy.

 
for lottie-